I Met Code — and Found Myself

It Was Never Just Code

When I first met code, I thought I was learning how to make computers do things.

But somewhere between the ifs and elses, between broken loops and fixed bugs, I realized I was also learning how to understand myself.

It wasn’t about syntax.

It was about silence.

Every Error Taught Me Something Deeper

Each error message wasn’t just pointing out a flaw in my code — it was gently holding up a mirror to my own blind spots.

A misplaced character?

Maybe I rushed

An infinite loop? Maybe I was stuck in my own repetitive thoughts.

A function not returning what I expected?

Maybe I needed to stop expecting too much from things not meant to give me what I wanted.

Coding was never just logical. It was emotional. Quietly, deeply human.

A Place Where I Didn’t Have to Explain Myself

The screen never judged me.

It waited. Patiently.

Even when I didn’t believe in myself, it let me try again.

That sense of permission — to try, to break, to fix, to try again — taught me a kind of gentleness I had never shown myself before.

Finding Peace in the Process

There’s a calmness in writing code. It’s the calm of small wins, of showing up, of watching something grow.

And even when the output wasn’t what I hoped — the act of building, of thinking, of quietly creating — that was enough.

In code, I found something steady in a world that often felt too loud, too fast, too much.

Final Line

I came to code looking for a career. But what I found… was a conversation with myself.

And sometimes, that’s the real program we need to run.


Reader Prompt:

Have you ever started something technical… and ended up learning something deeply emotional instead?

Tell me about it in the comments. Or just write one sentence:

“I met code, and I met myself.”

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  1. msaitsabuncu Avatar

    In every line of code, I wasn’t just solving logic—I was slowly decoding myself.
    Each error message touched a quiet wound within me.
    This piece reminded me once again that coding can sometimes be therapy, sometimes a prayer,
    and sometimes just a soft whisper reminding me that I exist.
    Thank you for this heartfelt journey.

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